What I Can't Say

  • A Word With My Brother

    You believed
That I should not have been born

You were first
I was last
And there was a world between us

You were the maverick
raging through the storms
until you found better weather

You thought
I had the best of it
Being last

Did I?

You resented me
Hated me
Believed I should not have been born

But yet
You did not know me

You believed
I didn't want to know you

Did I?
There was a world between us

Can I still?
There is a realm between us
Or around us
Or within us

You believed
That I should not have been born

  • Do You Know Who I Am?

    You tell me I am special
Different
In a good way
And you treasure me

Yes, I am different
But do you know who I am?

I can only hope
that your goodness
is reflected back to you
in the mirror of my eyes.

Because I am different
Do you know who I am?

I can only hope
that your goodness
will carry us both
when my shadow looms.

I can only hope
that your goodness
will still be reflected
when my eyes are dark.

I can only hope
that your goodness
will still find treasure here
when you find out who I am.

  • Decisions

    I shouldn't have done that
I should've known better
I should've done better
I should've been better.

But I didn't know better
I didn't see better
I didn't hear better
I didn't live better.

Can I do better?
Can I love better?
Can I give better?
Can I live better?

Breathe
Just breathe
Breathe again
You'll feel better.

  • Out for a Run

    Slow
but moving

Slow
but breathing

Slow
but noticing the trees
the squirrels
the muddy footprints
the smiling dogs

Slow
but feeling the air
cool in my lungs
cool on my face
damp in my hair

Slow
but hearing the music
jazz 
sixty years old
feels like home

Slow
but still moving
still feeling
still living.

  • Driving

    So tired
Would that curve be enough
to give me some rest

Are there statistics
on that curve
on cars like mine
at a speed like mine
in these conditions

Would that curve be enough
to give me some rest
And stop all the driving